i feel alone

I feel so alone. I don't understand why when it comes to me, they don't notice. I try to be there for them always but what do I do if I have nobody to to turn to? I don't have anybody to tell this to because every single one of us has problems and I don't wanna be a burden; I always try to do things on my own.

But why can't they see that I'm struggling too, or that I feel left out? Why is it that they don't pay attention to me? Why is it that they never listen or talk to me? In groupchats, I always end up being the last chat. Or whenever I chat, no one replies.

Do they hate me?
I try my best to be there for them, I really do, but do they hate me that bad to the point they ignore me?

I know they might not hate me, but if they don't, then why do they make me think so?
Maybe I'm the one to blame since I don't tell them — but why don't they take the initiative to notice? Why don't they take me seriously?

I've gone through this so many times.
I don't know what else I can do, honestly

I love them so much and I know they love me too,
But honestly, does it hurt to show it?

I understand they have different ways of expressing themselves. I understand, I understand that they say they don't have any favoritism towards us. That they don't treat us any different.

But why is it, that when it comes to me, you're so distant?
You say you love me, that you appreciate me — but why don't I feel it? Not with your words, not with your actions.

I know that you guys may love me.
But seriously — does it hurt to show me?

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anonymous Friends April 15, 2026 at 11:39 am 0 1