I want a place to let this out

I met this twitch streamer named, sinister_beef1, and enjoyed his content. I joined his discord server and became friends with a couple of his moderators. A girl and a guy. The guy moderator spoke to me the most and at the time I didnt mind it A week later sinister admitted he likes me. I thought it was weird because I barely knew him but I was okay with friendship. The guy moderator begin to treat me weirdly and often guilt tripped me when I didn't want to hang out with him. He would talk badly about the other moderators too. I often listened but hearing it every hour got tiresome. When I tried hanging out with sinister, the moderator guy would say he would off himself to stop sinister from hanging out with me. This made me feel stressed and sad. When sinister wasn't around the moderator guy would obsess over sinister, talking about how sinister makes him flustered and he likes when sinister yells at him, that it makes him feel good. When it was me, moderator guy, and sinsiter; moderator guy often talked about sexual stuff and would constantly wedge himself between us. Over time I started to like sinister a lot more as he would constantly tell me he likes me, talks to me often and initiated sexual conversations. After enduring the moderator guys bs for a while I got tired of it and no longer wanted to be friends with him. Mind you this moderator guy has a boyfriend and sinister is straight. I had no problems with sinister and my only problem was with the moderator guy as he didnt like that we werent friends anymore. Right after our friendship with the moderator guy ended, sinister stopped talking to me and blocked me. A day after he blocked me the moderator girl told me she had to aswell because the moderator guy was pressuring her. It not only hurt my feelings because everyone blocked me without good reason other then following the moderator guy who was mad at me, but also because sinister often sexted me and initiated sexual conversation. Now I feel like he used me when he was horny and didnt actually like me. He didn't even give the decency to tell me he no longer wanted to be friends after leading me on. I tried asking why but I got blocked each time, so I gave up and left him alone. A few days ago I suddenly started getting harassed and cyberbullied by the moderator guy. He was using many different accounts. I blocked and blocked but there was always a new account. I tried contacting sinister or someone for help but I get blocked each time. Now I feel vulnerable. Im so stressed and tired of this. My feelings are hurt, my anxiety is through the roof... I'm so done with this moderator guy. I never hated a streamer and their moderation team so much. Im frustrated and wanted a place to vent.

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Anonymous Dating April 16, 2026 at 11:16 pm 0 0